9-8-18

 On this day, I woke up nervously excited. But oddly, my anxiety was no where to be found.  Maybe because even it understood on some level that today wasn't about me. It was about my best friend, getting a new best friend.   Congrats Manda and K. I wish you  all the best on this new adventure...

   

Truth... (revised)

      

     There will always be days when you feel like this. Like you are drowning. And like people don't really like you, they only tolerate your existence. But always remember, those days don't last. Eventually, life goes on. 
    And I know it is hard, believe me I know. But it really is important to not let these irrational feelings hold you back in life. Stop pushing people away. Let them in, at least a little.
    If there is a movie you want to go see. Go SEE it. Don't worry about the crowds of people. Just get your popcorn and enjoy yourself. Give yourself permission to be exactly who you are. Because there is nothing wrong with you. Sure, some people won't like you. But some will love you, for exactly who you are. Let them.      And allow yourself to just BE.
  To be happy. Whatever makes you that way. To be loved (seriously he might actually be a good guy. Give it a chance.)(Actually don't because apparently the guy you've been talking to for 4 months never actually remembered to break up with his "EX" ) To be funny, or not be. Whichever. Both are OK. You are OK. Everything is going to be OK.  So take a risk. Go to the place you always wanted but stopped yourself for whatever reason. Call him! Sing in public. Grow. Evolve. Learn. Become the you-est you that you could ever be!!!